Things on My Mind

There have been many thing on my mind as of late. I have not quite been feeling myself. It has been said that we (humans) are creatures of habit.

If that is true, are we destined to keep repeating the same things that we all do? I mean, I know that each of us have some type of map that we live every day by, but what happens when that becomes something that you cannot live by anymore? Does there need to be some great outside event that will shake our lives to the point that we change, or do we just get so fed up with our lives that we are forced to change it.

I feel that part of my problem is that whenever I get fed up with my life and want to make a change I am never able to stick with it. I feel that the root of this problem is my lack of motivation to really change my life. I am become comfortable with the way I have been living, hence the map I was talking about. When I change that, I feel off and it never sticks. I am not quite sure what to do.

The two things that have been giving me the most problem are my physical appearance (many contributors, but mainly my weight) and my lack of confidence when it comes to approaching women.

I will come out and say it. I have never successfully been in a relationship. I don't mean that when I get into one, I cannot keep it, but that I just cant seem to get into one. For some unknown reason to me, whenever there is a girl I am attracted to, I clam up around her, until we start talking a little bit. It is almost like I see women like that as a mythical being and am afraid to approach them, but as soon as contact is made, the "spell" is broken and I see that they are a normal person just like me. I feel that I just need to have one successful experience and then I will be able to approach this with a different light... but enough of my personal problems with women.

Untimatly I feel that everything comes down to motivation.

The Academy Awards

So I know this is a few days late, but I wanted to give you all my thoughts on what happened at the Academy Awards last Sunday Night.

First I would like to say that I was not that big of a fan of the hosts of the show. Steve Martin and Alec Baldwin are fine actors and performers in their own right, but I felt as if the banter that happened between them was too forced, although I did enjoy the snuggie tie in.

Secondly, for the "Best Picture" award, I was happy to see that Avatar did not win. I mean, I never saw it so I really cant judge it, but I just do not feel that it is the same thing compared to a live action movie. Prior to the awards I had not seen The Hurt Locker either, but I was glad to see that it won (I rented it the next night and was very impressed). I was a little disappointed to see that Up did not win, but I guess that falls into the same reasoning as why Avatar did not. Right now there is no comparison to actually seeing actors do the acting. Yes in Avatar all of the acting is real, but there is a difference that you cannot pass while you are watching a blue creature that resembles a cat do all of the acting rather and an actual human.

Over all I didn't have too many complaints with what movies/teams/people that worked on them that won the categories that they won. It was a little weird to heat my mom say "I hope to see your name up there" while they were saying the nominees for Best Art Direction. I mean, I am studying theatre design at the college I am attending, but I don't think that I will make it to the movies, but hey you never know.

Some movies that I would have liked to see me even nominated for things, but weren't are Where The Wild Things Are and 9

So far I am pleased with the movies that have been released in 2010, with Alice in Wonderland being my favorite one to date, but then again I don't get to see movies as often as I would like.

Next year the Academy Awards should be good with plenty of good movies to come out, and we will always have those dark horses that come out of no where, much like The Hurt Locker did.